#26: my relationship with starbucks

“A friend that could propel me at this present moment and future if I were to continue to want to build and have a healthy relationship with it.” - eleni k.

I hate Starbucks - YES. You read it right.

Before you, Starbucks lovers go crazy over it and like "Eleni! You hypocrite! I've seen you at Starbucks and having a jolly good of a time." - hear me out first.

Actually more like please continue reading. 😂

I have nothing or anything against Starbucks. It's just that because growing up, it seems like it is made for the elites only. By elite I mean those people with $$ to spend because, well them Starbucks ain't cheap for someone like me. So what do I do? I just simply say I hate it to hide behind that mask.

For the record, I am not ashamed of my childhood/upbringing because part of who I am today is because of that. But there are parts of it that needs to be fix now that I know better 😊

Fast forward to few years past my teenage years; my power of earning grew and so did my spending. But my mindset was still the same. I still won't spend that much of money for a cup of Starbucks and view it as a waste of money whenever I do. Bottomline is, I feel guilty whenever I do get a cup of Starbucks. Except during Christmas because I would find myself internally justifying myself for that cup - Its Christmas! Treat yourself! - those kinds of things.

The problem was never with Starbucks, to begin with. It was me. My point of view. My relationship with money. That was the problem that was deep-seated in me. I don't have a healthy view of it. I don't have a healthy relationship with it. It was a damaged one because I always view money as a foe and not as a friend.

What do I mean by that?

A foe that would be a stumbling block for me whether I have little, just enough or more. I would spend on wants more than needs (after paying all my bills); justifying it as I go along.

It was only when I was 33 that for some reason God began to deal with me this issue that I have. It wasn't an overnight change kind of thing. It took me at least 2 years of constantly tithing and trusting that God wants me to walk in freedom for my point of view of money to change and for the relationship to heal. It felt like I'd broken free from a long abusive relationship because truth to be told, money was lording itself over me. It was stealing my joy and peace at every corner it can find.

Now at 36 years old; I'm finally able to say that I truly enjoy making trips to Starbucks to get my favourite drink - a cold venti-sized Caramel Macchiato. I use these trips for work, chat up with friends, meet with clients, write and process my thoughts.

I won't say that I am completely free from this foe of mine but I can say that this foe has turned to be more of a friend rather than a foe. A friend in times of need because I understood its value of sentiment more than the numbers that are attached to it.

A friend that could propel me at this present moment and future if I were to continue to want to build and have a healthy relationship with it.

Btw, this train of thought was totally unintentional. It was sparked as I was sipping my drink and saw 2 teenagers on the next table chatting away whilst sipping their drinks.

And yes, I'm at Starbucks as I'm writing this. Cheers!

Originally me,

Eleni K.

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