#24: originally me, eleni

//matthew 6:21 (tpt) for your heart will always pursue what you value as your treasure//

For the past couple of days, my heart has been grieving in ways and for people that I never thought I would or knew of the possibility of it. This is in light of the recent events of Marty Sampson & Joshua Harris. Normally,I would prefer to not think about it but it’s something that I just couldn’t shake off from my mind and I have questions as I go through this grieving process. Here are some of my thoughts and personal views of it. FYI just for the record, I’m not shaken by their statement 😊✨🎉

//01. grieving

For me, I think it’s important to allow yourself time to grief but don’t get sucked into it. I grew up listening to a lot of songs written by Marty and have read 2 books by Josh Harris. They influenced me a lot in those areas and how I perceive certain things in life hence I think that’s why the news causes me to grief. But in light of it all, I do not think that what they’ve written in songs and books previously are rendered as dishonest or that they are seeking personal gain. They wrote out of their relationship with Jesus at that time and it edified and strengthen the body of Christ. I still listened to those songs up until today and I do find the 2 books written by Josh Harris are relevant still in our current time.

//02. words & deeds

I’ve taken the time to read some (not all) of the comments made on Marty’s & Josh’s Instagram and I seriously think people should be a little more thoughtful in their speech. I get that it came as a shock to everyone with their announcements but I think that as Christians we should not be too quick to judge and point fingers at them, at the church that they grew up at or saying hurtful things to them just because they’ve made their choices or is at the point of seeking in making one. This is their journey and everyone is responsible for their relationship with God at the end of the day. Let’s be mindful of that 😊✨🎉

//03. idolising

People and putting them on pedestal, I think this is one that I’ve pre-decided not to do many many years ago. People come and people go. Some have saviour complex, some just want to be part of something that’s currently happening and some are purely pursuing their passion. And that’s that. We should stop idolising people on every level from peers to artist to people in ministry and etc. The only one who should have that level on our lives is Jesus because He is at the centre of it all. Yes, you do get star struck sometimes when you meet someone that you are a fan of and that is normal but putting people on a pedestal simply means that in your eyes they could do no wrong and that even if they screw up (could be their work or life), you simply could not take it and sometimes are too blind to see it. Worst is if you view them as someone who could save you from your current situation! Let’s not put them (the people you idolise) on that level of pressure and let them to simply be them. After all, they are humans just like you and me, and not God and could never take the place of God 🎉✨🔥

//04. relationship

Everyone is responsible for their relationship with Jesus. I’m not responsible for you and you are not responsible for mine. What you value, that's where your heart will be also. If you value intellect, you will pursue intellectual talks and findings. If you value your creativity, you will pursue creativity. If you value a relationship, you will pursue relationships. You will pursue what you value. I pursue creativity and passion because I value those things. I pursue a relationship with God because I value this relationship. Do I have it on 100% all the time? No. Have I fallen from this relationship? Yes. Do I want to give up on this relationship? Heck no. Will I continue to pursue this relationship? You bet! Why? Because in all my life, in my ups and downs, the only thing I know to be close and have held me together is Jesus. His Word, the countless experiences and testimonies of Jesus being in my highs and lows has kept me to this day. I’m not one who is bright and intellectual enough to debate the existence of God and about the whole creation. I’m simple in my mind and the one thing I’ve come to know is that through my experience and testimony, God not only exists, but He is also real. And this I will continue to pursue in my life.

Even if this pursuit at the end of my life deems to be useless (which I don’t think so it will be because of the many things I’ve mentioned before but even if la…it’s a very big if), I have lived my life in the one pursuit that has made me most alive and has consistently made me most alive and made sense on all the other things in my life, I am okay with that and to this, I will continue to give my life to ❤️❤️❤️

"I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else.” - C. S. Lewis ☀️🎉❤️

And I cannot unseen it…. Originally me, Eleni K. 🧡🎉✨🦋

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